Something troubling hangs in the air. Stiff as molasses. It's all in the spirit of David Lynch - it's as if nothing is going on clearly, but you feel the skin troubles, from which I'd be glad to fence off. But how?.

On the morning of November 22, TV and radio - the main sources of information for me and many other Luhansk residents - continued to be silent. Two young blonde moms with me hotly discussed the situation. And, it would seem, what to discuss something? There is nothing, but all the same - anxious. These two lovely young ladies hotly talked about the fact that, in case of what, will have to run again, like three years ago. But three years ago their children were still babies, and they did not deliver any stress at the sea-flight at sea, but now the children understand everything, they can get scared, start asking. And where to run, then? Again to shoot the first apartments? How much? And after all the second circle of wanderings at all it would not be desirable. Further from the events of the current girls went to the events of three years ago, remembering who and where spent that summer, and how they were then.

At 11:00 my mom called and excitedly informed - the channels have earned. "And what?", - I asked hurriedly in no less excitement? "Nothing," Mom answered almost justifying herself, "not a word about all the events". And as if nothing like this was happening around, but all together was scratching the unknown. And if they turn off the light? And if the situation worsens? Really it is impossible to somehow calm people, to start up some kind of video, information with the explanation of everything? After all, the news "LNRowski" is a commentary of every action by the "authorities". Usually they tell everything, to nausea, show off. And now - silence.

On the way home, I snatched a glance that the "military" car was blocked off the ascent from Red Square to the residence of the "Interior Ministry". Yes, the center is closed. I did not need to go there, but the friend told me that I had barely made it through the center on foot, because it was completely blocked by people with weapons and equipment. And such as my friend, pedestrians, showed how to bypass the barricades along other streets.

I went to the store, bought bread for future use. Maybe someone will seem ridiculous, but I was so relaxed after the summer. Along the way I tried to listen to the radio. Local radio channels made their way, but - again nothing. Congratulatory songs, easy transmissions and no news. In the evening, "republican" television broadcasts disappeared again - a gray tap, as is the case with prevention. Russian TV channels worked in the usual way, but they did not say a word about everything that happens in Lugansk. Does anything happen at all?.

In the evening on the radio twisted bravura songs in Russian and about Russian. The next transfer of congratulations at the request of workers. I listen half-heartedly about the fact that "we will beat the Ukrofashists to the victorious end and live in peace with our brothers from Donetsk". Again, not a word about the coup. Only music. In the evening, the abundance of cars of the State Automobile Inspection. Lenin. This is clearly not a concert. Not under such circumstances.

Now again the gray background on all channels. Again, attempts to understand what is happening. Through friends, through acquaintances. And up to the point of view, this whole situation. Do not we have the right to know what's going on? It's our city, too, and our life. Escape in the case of which there is no money, strength and desire.

Therefore, let it be better that nothing will happen or happen so that it does not affect wages, pensions and electricity in any way. It is naive, of course, but I do not want to repeat the summer of 2014, because we are sorting out the consequences of that summer - in nightmares, in the child's memories of shooting, sickness, depression ... The colleague once said that we are all disabled after the summer of 2014 in the city. Probably, she is right, because my child asks from time to time how our summer passed in Lugansk. And I ask him: "Do you remember this?" I naively thought that he does not understand anything, does not remember and will forget right away. Therefore, I do not want a return to that summer, either, because for three years the memories were not dull. In general, I want peace. Understandable situation in the city. And selfishly want a quiet life.

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